It's Not Too Late

Oh boy!

Life moves so fast and reality catches us no matter how you circumvent things. When I started this blog around 2017 when I gave my life to Christ, I was a teenager, a young student seeking admission to tertiary institutions, and a super positive person trying to get life right.

Fast forward to today, I am 24, have a girlfriend, no savings, about $2500 in debt and haven't figured my life out yet regarding income, life patterns, skill set and much more. I drifted away from Christ and thought I could do it on my own. I thought all the feats I achieved while I am closely connected were entirely through my sleepless nights, dedication, persistence and resilience which it was, but with Jesus being the Chief Foundation.

As I even write this, I sit adjacent to one of my creditors at work and I need to pay up today. This time tomorrow, I have to pay a little above what I owe who I sit adjacent to, to my elder brother. I live a very complicated life and it somehow gets more complicated as days go by. 

I could write about my bad habits coupled with obnoxious thoughts that dominate my mind the vast majority of the time but all of these things aren’t a pride so why spew more?

Someone once said, “Any life without Christ would be in crisis” and sadly I am experiencing the mal. Suicide has crossed my mind severally and sometimes when I have the patience to read through what I wrote 5-7 years ago, I am usually struck with the awe of how vast and immensely profound I used to be and how far I had fallen. 

I titled this, “It’s Not Too Late” because I know Jesus fixes all things. Ugly, yes but not irreparable. I sincerely don’t know how to transverse this debt phase or survive this week but I know I can’t get it wrong with God. This is time for rededication. Time for revival. 

I am kept alive for reasons and maybe this is one: to prove to myself that only God can rule my life in a way that would benefit myself and my family in the long run, and be an inspiration to others that God can literally fix anything because I know and believe that  He has fixed me. 

Jameslad is quite older now but still Jameslad anyway. It’s great to be back in God’s manifold flock.

Welcome to Revival.